From the recording COUNTERBALANCE

“What is hell? I maintain that it is the suffering of being unable to love.” Fyodor Dostoyevsky
A song for those left behind when a loved one departs from us with no certainty of a safe return. Whether it is nature or circumstance that has brought it about, we are permanently divided from someone we love, and for most this is a punishment from which it is never possible to recover fully. Inspired by the death of singer Lorraine’s grandmother Nora Reilly in the summer of 2011 after nearly a century of life.



We knew the time would come to pass
But you never think so soon
A life is frozen behind glass
To watch the everyday resume

And watch she does as we try to make sense
Waver from black to rebirth, and back so fast

Whatever happens beyond this farewell
Surely I should be able to tell
Whatever happens
There are things we can’t see
Surely answers should leap out at me

Are we by chance or by design?
Here our truths all separate
From our departed, not one sign
As we reason out their fate

And watch she does as we try to make sense
Waver from sunset to dawn and back so fast

Whatever happens…
Whatever happens…

And now these doors would lock up the past
And see that we’re held at arm’s length
From all we loved